SongVersations: “The Lady In My Life” Feat. Steven Russell Harts And Allen McNeil

Here I am scrolling on social media and I see that one of my favorite classics, “The Lady In My Life” by the legendary Michael Jackson was remade by Pasadena’s finest.

Steven Russell Hearts and Allen McNeil, of the Legendary R&B group Troop. My, my, my…. You guys went there, and I’m glad you went there and continue to keep going there..

That’s what it’s all about…. The music. That’s what it should always be about…. Love, music, brotherhood. What else matters?!!

Without music how would this world be? Your gift is your gift is to share with the world. Well, It’s about time 🙂 got dammit!! LOL. Hell took y’all so long, lol.

One thing I like is good music and after TROOP being in the industry for 30+ years, it seems like it was just yesterday when you heard another classic remake. “All I do Is Think Of You”. Sung again by TROOP, was just playing on the airwaves. And what about “Mamacita” Damn, I miss these times….

And here they are doing it again. Taking us back when music meant something. Because I have no clue what’s going on in the industry today. I feel sorry for our youth and this so-called music they have to grow up on. I must say they do Michael Jackson justice, on all levels and I am sure he is in heaven smiling…..

And very well pleased as I’m sure you all are. Not everybody can do an MJ song and get away with it. Fans have been waiting on the two of you for a minute now. Waiting on the two of you to be the next K-ci and Jojo. And now the wait is finally over. With this remake, you can hear the two distinctive voices apart from one another.

While still staying in the melodic rhythm. There’s no confusions if you listen closely and have a good ear for music. Those same sensual emotions, that energy, Michael Jackson made you feel, when he sang this song was captured in this song. If you wanna be taken down memory lane, when music was good, when music made you feel.

Then support real music, by artist who can really sing. The artist you love are still around and they need to know that real music matters, to real people and real fans. Lets get back to romance and love… Download “The Lady In My Life.” You will not regret it!!!

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Congratulations New Edition, On Your BET Lifetime Achievement Award!!!

NEW EDITION…… 2017 IS YOUR YEAR

Words alone can not express how happy I am for each and every one of you. It’s been my hearts greatest joy loving on NE’s music for the past 34 years and you all as a solo artist. I thank God for you and that each and every one of you are alive, well and blessed to see this day and we get to be alive to witness it. Thank you so much for the music and memories that I and we hold dear to our hearts….

Music that has touch my mind, body and soul. Because this kind of love is a once and a lifetime honor and achievement and it is long overdue 😉. It’s not so much so the award, it’s what it truly means. It’s about love and music and touching people’s hearts all over the world. People you may and may not even meet in this lifetime, but you know your music reached them. It’s a responsibility that NE has held up with great dignity and honor.

MUSIC HEALS AND MUSIC SAVES LIVES

The day you made that phone call as a little boy Ralph, the world of music has never been the same. You knew what love and brotherhood meant. You had a dream not just for yourself, but for your family and your brothers. You wanted everybody to be successful and make it. You knew what UBUNTU was as a child, and came more into it as you evolved. Many groups have tried to duplicate but all they can do is look up to you guys and pay homage 😉.

All of you were born to do this and open the doors for others, because in this life it’s not about self.. which so many of us think it is. We can not get through this thing called life alone. We need to be in service of others and help others achieve their dreams too, because in return it helps us too, that’s how blessing others works. Whether it was 4 of you, 5 or 6. Or when you all branched off and did your own thing,

A beautiful thing happens, when NEW EDITION comes together and it’s called magic. It’s a beautiful thing to witness and see. Have a blessed beautiful day! Enjoy the show, don’t be so overwhelmed Ralph 😊 Love can do that😉 Thank you for being so selfless, humble and not being a “celebrity” and giving of your time and heart 5 days a week on inside the ride, because you don’t have to. We’ll be watching, loving on you guys from a far. We love you immensely 😘🤗✨❤️.

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SongVersations: “Do Me Baby” By The Legendary Meli’sa Morgan

Meli’sa Morgan,… where do I began?

Passion, sensuality, rawness, daring, erotic and emotional depth… oh and goosebumps… that’s what comes to mind when I hear the legendary artist Meli’sa Morgan sing. Anything else would be an understatement.

As soon as I hear the name Meli’sa’s Morgan, my mind automatically reverts back to 1985 when I first heard her sing on the radio. I stood still as I was captivated!

Here we are in this big ol’ empty room, staring each other down. You want me just as much, as I want you. Lets stop fooling around. Take me baby, kiss me all over. Honey play with my love. Bring out whats been in me for far to long. Baby you know, that’s all I keep dreaming of. Do me, baby, like you never done before, oh give it to me. Till I just can’t take no more. “

Let that marinate……. Let that sink into your cells…. You feel that? You ready for more?

Let me take you down memory lane. Meli’sa Morgan made Prince’s song “Do Me, Baby” A classic hit in 1985! Even Prince admitted it. It stayed at the top of the charts for 3 weeks. Meli’sa brought that raw, soulful, feminine sensuality that was needed to make this song a hit. When Meli’sa came out the world had to stop and take notice of this sultry singer.

I think you would all agree with me, when I say Meli’sa did this song justice. Prince was very pleased! I wonder how many people had babies off this song, LOL. I love the boldness of how female artist back then, reveled in their sensuality. How can you listen to this song and not want to make love. It just puts you in the sensual mood. I got that look in my eyes right now, as I listen and write this article, lol :).

If you’re not in the mood while listening to this song, something is clearly wrong with you, lol. Back in the day, artist told stories, they took you on a sensual journey with their music.

You could hear a song like this and get a visual of two people staring each other down, with passion in their eyes just ready to be intertwined in each others souls.

You can’t just listen to an artist like Meli’sa and not get caught up in her voice and sensuality. Meli’sa makes you feel every lyrical emotion throughout your body. If you’re not naked by the time this song is over, something is not right, LOL.

Singing like this brings you to your knees. You have to have a spiritual musical breakdown, to get that passion out of your body to sing a song like this. Every song has its climax and it starts at the 3:34 mark and ends at 3:52. Leaving you breathless. I anticipate this part so much. I love the mentalgasm I get from it. It leaves my body weak in ecstasy. It’s a world-wind of ecstasy and passion. You feel it in your gut.

Singers like Meli’sa Morgan come once in a lifetime. Meli’sa brings that soul to music, you can tell she used to be a gospel singer the way she belts out those soulful notes. You can always tell gospels singers from the way other singers sing. If you can sing gospel, you can sing anything because of your vocal range. You can hear her musical influences as she sings.

Meli’sa is up there with the greats of Whitney Houston, Chaka Khan, Anita Baker, Miki Howard, Karyn White and many more to name a few. Back in the day you had to come with it and that’s exactly what Meli’sa did.

Meli’sa was just too much!! You had to sing with passion and emotion or no record deal. Now record deals are giving out like free food samples at the mall. It makes you wonder can music be saved?!?

Will artist like Meli’sa get the shine and recognition they truly deserve in a major way? Artist like Meli’sa is what’s missing in today’s music. You just don’t hear this kind of soulful singing anymore. It’s hard to find soulful artist that sing with this kind of depth. This song makes you feel beautiful and sensual. I love the rawness and passion in this song. Songs like this lets you know its ok to be sensual and uninhibited  as a woman towards your lover.

If you want him say so. So many times women hold back who they are, as if they don’t feel or have sexual desires. And here you have a woman saying, “Bring out whats been in me for far to long. Baby you know, that’s all I keep dreaming of, Do Me Baby.” Like right now! Take me got dammit, LOL. Do me like you never done before. She wants her lover to make her feel alive. Like a woman. She hungers for that passion when two sensual souls connect. That kind of passion is missing in romantic relationships.

I never knew there was another version of this song and until I found out Prince did this first. It never got the airplay it deserved until Prince let Meli’sa covered it. This song has Prince written all over it. We all know how sensual Prince was.

That energy came across in his music. The fire and passion all over this song is pure orgasmic ecstasy. It’s hard not to listen to this song and not have it on repeat for hours or rewind certain parts. You anticipate every beat.

Meli’sa vocals hits you at the back of your neck and shoots down your spine. If you wanna ignite that passion and romance in your relationship, just play Meli’sa’s music. I love how in an article in Essence Magazine, as Meli’sa was reflecting on Prince’s life and legacy. How Meli’sa pointed how selfless Prince was with sharing his gift and mentoring other artist. Prince was not selfish. It’s true you have a lot of artist who don’t mentor others and they want the shine all to themselves.

Sometimes its like that, you have artist that come a long and make other artist songs great. It’s not taking anything away from who they are as an artist, but sometimes it’s just meant to be. To have another artist cover a song. Music is a love affair between many artist and you have to humble yourself or already be humble to say “wow, you did that, you turned my song into a hit. Thank you!”

That maybe this is the reason why I did the song, so someone with a beautiful soulful sensual voice as yours could bless it and give it life. Not to many artist do that. As artist are very critical of their work. You hear stuff like that happen all the time. Songs are just meant for other people who passed on it or couldn’t give it what it really needed. It happens like that in creative fields. It made me think of myself as a writer.

It’s hard to come across people who genuinely want to mentor and help you. I’m always grateful for artist who take time out to read my work and even other writers who ask me for my opinion on their work.

In order for me to write for someone, I must have their music already infused in my spirit. I have to understand them as an artist. I need to feel that sensual energy. Creators want to know that their art means something. They need someone to go in-depth and really hear, not just listen.

Meli’sa also brought us hits like “Fool’s Paradise.” This is a favorite jam on Ralph Tresvant’s  “Inside the Ride Show”. Every time Diggy plays this song on the air, I’m just brought back to a time when music was soulful. When it was just sensual. From the moment that beats drops, I know Meli’sa’s about to bring it! I’m so glad I grew up in a time when artist could really sing and they made you feel. It was a full mind body, spiritual experience and even brought you to tears with ecstasy.

Music like this got deep down in your soul. Living legendary artist like Meli’sa Morgan, are still around and we need to pay homage to them and let them know how much we love and appreciate their creative contribution to real soulful music. God blessed them with the gift of voice and song and they need our voice! Artist might feel like the world has forgotten about them, but I know I haven’t and I hope you haven’t too! Music matters. It really does!

You can follow Meli’sa Morgan on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram

Enjoy Meli’sa’s Classic Remake Hit “Do Me, Baby”

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SongVersations: “Your Touch” By Ralph Tresvant

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/its-goin-down/id2699933In the middle of the of night. I woke up to my favorite artist voice singing in my ear. The sensual peaceful sounds of  Mr. Ralph Tresvant singing “Your Touch”,

“I’ll be waiting for your touch. Nothing’s quite the same as when we touch. Love me with your magic touch. I’ll be right here baby by your side. I’ll be waiting for your touch. Nothing’s quite the same as when we touch.

Love me with your magic touch. Love me with your magic touch. Magic touch. Touch me. Never thought it be so easy to fall in love, but when you smile, I feel the difference in your touch. And loving you is so easy, you stolen my heart. In your eyes make all the difference, in your touch.”

Every time when Ralph says those two words “Touch Me“. That whisper calms my spirit as those words flow throughout my body. I feel his music touching me. I find myself rewinding that part over and over again. Letting those words and the sound of his masculine voice, how angelic, loving and peaceful it is, get infused into my soul and my subconscious.

It feels like ecstasy. It makes me feel like a beautiful woman. I laid there in bed and just took in the music. It was peaceful and relaxing. It was simple. I thought for a moment how nice, it would be to have a lover, that I could reach for in the middle of the night to hold me. To make love to me. Someone to make me feel like a sensual woman.

Someone who I can have the first thing in the morning, before I have breakfast and before I start my day. A sweet endearing kiss on my forehead and warm embrace. Someone who makes me forget about my past pain. Someone who is gentle with my love. Someone to make me feel safe and protected. Someone who can be my peace and I can be their peace.

Listening to this song when he says “loving you is so easy.” Those lyrics remind me of myself and my first love. It was just easy for him to love me and for me to love him. Two simples souls who never pressured each other and just thought to themselves. How can make you happy because I love to see you smile.

Love shouldn’t be difficult. I don’t know why people keep thinking it should be. Maybe because they are used to pain. Someone shouldn’t make it difficult for you to love them. They should make it easy. When it comes to love or being with someone, it’s either you want to be with that person or not. It’s not difficult. But I’m not looking for perfect, I’m looking for honest and real.

As I lay there in bed, the sun begin to rise, I heard the birds singing outside my window, it made me smile and in that moment. I thought I was going to hear that beat drop and hear  “Can you stand the rain” By New Edition.” Classic songs like that always remind me of home. Music is what love sounds and feels like.

As I take a trip down memory lane as a child being at home with my mom. When things used to be so simple and quiet. I find myself craving more and more of it each day. I know that anyone who threatens and disturbs my peace, is not meant for me to love or be around. As I am very sensitive to negative frequencies.

People ask me all the time, why are you single? They don’t get it. I would be a rich woman, as many times as I’ve been asked that, lol. I’m told “you’re so peaceful. You’re so nice.” I don’t understand why you don’t have a man, that’s loving you and giving you everything you want.” Well I say, it’s not really about what I want first.

What good is wanting something, if it’s not coming from someone you want to be with, love or someone who loves you back. It’s about what I need first, my wants will come later. What I want is peace and quiet. What I don’t need and don’t want is someone disturbing my peace of mind. I want someone who is just as quiet and simple as I am.

Someone who appreciates the little and simple things in life. Someone who enjoys being in the moment. I want someone who revels in my peaceful calm spirit as I revel in theirs.  Someone who hears what I don’t say and is thoughtful and kind. Someone who looks at me and in their eyes alone, I can see into their soul and know that they love me.

I want a magical touch, a touch that I can feel the passion and desire emitting, from the depths of their soul to their finger tips, when they touch me and when they kiss me. Someone I can’t wait to crave and breathe in the way I need air. Someone who’s love is untainted by a previous lover.

Someone who allowed their heart and spirit to heal, so they can be open and free to love again. I want someone to love me with their magic touch. I’ll be waiting….. I’m patiently waiting for it. Is it too much to ask for? No…not all 🙂 .

SongVersations: “Never Noticed” By Ralph Tresvant

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/rizz-wa-faire/id157081843“Oh, where did you go?
Why did you leave?
No chance to say goodbye
And let’s be honest

Ever since you went away
Living hasn’t been the same
Missing you and wanting you back here with me

Heaven knows how far I’ll go
I know its not logical to be with you But if I could, I would

Never noticed how much I loved you. Until the day you said goodbye for good. If I knew what I know now my love. I’m just thinking bout it”

Words beautifully sung by Ralph Tresvant. When you listen to these lyrics, it makes you wonder about the person you loved, that suddenly walked out on you and never gave you an answer as to why. It’s hits you when you are alone. You start thinking about it. You ask yourself what happened? What didn’t I see?

Why did you leave? I never got a chance to say good-bye. Why didn’t you talk to me and let me know you were unhappy, or maybe they did and you just didn’t pay attention. There are always signs in a relationship that your significant other, is not happy but are you paying attention?

Sometimes it so easy to get caught up in our careers, that we neglect the one we love. The one that held us down. Material possessions can’t hold us at night. At the end of the day, we want someone to love and hold us and to just be there. To just be a friend.

You start thinking of your long-lost love and your heart aches, for that person to be back in your life. You know that if you could just get a second chance, that you can love them better. That you are changed man or woman. When I hear these lyrics It makes feel like someone’s love was taken for granted.

Maybe this woman just couldn’t deal with his life and how busy he is. Why else would she just pick up and leave without any explanation. Or maybe she fell in love with someone else. Now he’s sitting there missing her, wanting her back in his life. When he says “It was you, It was you.” Maybe he felt that she was always it for him.

That the mistakes he made, by not showing her how much, he loved and cared for her. That if he did maybe she would have stayed had she not felt neglected. Or maybe he loved her to much, gave her everything she wanted and still it wasn’t enough for her. Some times the more you love and give to a person, they take you for granted.

As the song plays it reminds me of the men I’ve dated and not dated. That claim I’m the one that got away. Now they are alone, missing me, wanting me back. They never realized how much they loved me, until I ended it. But when they had me, they took my love for granted. They keep wondering how their life would have turned out, if they just knew how to love woman like me. They want a second chance.

Why is it that when someone walks out of our life, we never notice how much they meant to us while they were in our life? Why does it takes someone absence to appreciated their presence? Some times we really do love that person, but we never notice how much until they are gone. When were alone with our thoughts it hits us.

Damn! I let the best thing I had slip away from me. We start feeling like a fool. The thoughts of the person we miss invaded our heart and spirit. We hear their voice, we want them near and we think, If only I can get a second chance. Life may or may not grant us with a second chance. But in life there are no do overs. We just have to live with the pain.

If we knew what we know now, we wouldn’t have made the mistake in the first place. Everyone we meet that walks in and out of our life. Is there to teach us a lesson, about love. They are there to help us grow and evolve. Hopefully we’ll know better next time, not to make the same mistake twice with a new love. We’ll recognize the rare spirit of love in front of us, next time around.

Inside The Ride With Ralph Tresvant, On WZBR 1410 AM, The Bass Of Boston

I just found out one of my favorite singers since I was a child, has launched his own radio show. So I had to show him some love. Yes, The Bass Of Boston has a new DJ. Boston’s Finest…..

Yours truly the one and only, legendary lead singer, Mr. Ralph Tresvant From the Iconic Legendary R&B Group New Edition.

This is such a breath of fresh air because I don’t listen to the radio nor do I own a radio. I stopped listening to the radio when music started changing towards the early 2000s.

Music has changed so much and for some of us that are still old school. We love to hear our classic jams from back in day. We get to relive those memories and remember when music was really good, when music meant something and spoke to your heart and soul. The 90s was definitely the best era in music.

I really wish that music did not change. Because when it comes to good music and classics, there is no expiration date. But in the music industry there is. Artist from back in the day should still be dominating the airwaves. So for those of us who appreciate good music. We get to enjoy it with artist who are cut from a different cloth.

I tuned in this week and I enjoyed being Inside The Ride. Every day has a different theme. There’s Mantra Mondays, throwback Thursday’s. Make sure you tune in for Freaky Fridays, that’s when it’s adult time :). Ralph is spinning classics that make you remember, what love and romance is all about, which is hard to find on the radio now a days.

If you love classics old and new from back in the day with a mix of some new music. You will enjoy being Inside The Ride with Ralph Tresvant. He’s personable, engaging, funny. He keeps it sexy and smooth. He loves his fans and I’m so happy that, The Bass Of Boston has him on their line-up.

Make sure you tune in Monday thru Friday, from 4pm to 7pm EST. On your way home from work during rush hour. Don’t have a radio? No problem! No need to fret. You can listen online and you can download The Bass APP  on iTunes and Google Play. Have a request.. call in 617-238-7111

So there you have it! There’s no excuse :). Make sure you tune in and tell a friend and have that friend tell a friend. Spread the word and don’t miss the ride!!! It’s Going Down on WZBR 1410 AM, The Bass of Boston with Ralph Tresvant, A.K.A DJ Iron Crates.

**Be sure to follow Ralph on Social media and join the fan club on Facebook and Twitter**

SongVersations: “Do What I Gotta Do” By Ralph Tresvant

Do you remember this timeless classic ballad,”Do What I Gotta Do” sung by the iconic and legendary lead singer of New Edition. Mr. Ralph Tresvant.

Breakups, they can get messy. How do you tell someone who you love and care for, that you want to be alone?

It’s not easy letting someone go, no matter how much you love them. It’s something you debate over and over in your mind. Should I? Shouldn’t I?

But deep down inside, you know you gotta do what you gotta do. What’s the best way to let someone down gently. Truth is there is no way to let them down gently. Either way it’s going to hurt you or the other person and no one likes to break someone else’s heart especially when they  still care.

When this song first came out, I remember the first time I heard it. It was May 11th 1991. I looked at the clock and it turned 5:16. My mom was in the kitchen cooking. She had the radio on 98.7. I heard this beautiful harmony coming from the radio and I just stood there…wondering who was that?

I turned the volume up and got lost in the music. I said is that Ralph Tresvant but wasn’t sure, until it went off and they announced his name. I had to have that album right then and there. Which my mom got for me. I thought it was a beautiful sad love song.

I knew it was a song about heart-break and understood the lyrics, I just thought it was beautifully put into song. I immediately got a visual and wanted to see the video. I didn’t really know the significance of the song until I was in my teens and into my adulthood. Thats when the lyrics really resonated.

In “Do What I Gotta Do” Ralph is in turmoil over ending his relationship with his lover. He doesn’t want to break her heart, but his heart and soul is breaking because, he needs to figure some things out and he needs to be alone. Sometimes the person you are in a relationship with doesn’t understand that. When he sings this note. “I’ve been feeling lately like being single or just alone, to get into myself.”

He feels like his woman, is playing games and he has to change the rules and look out for himself. When You are creative person, you need space to create. Unfortunately, the one you’re with can feel neglected, even though that’s not your intention.

img_1453Some of us are there right now. Feeling stuck. We need help letting go. We need to figure out who am I? Rediscover our passions. Figure out what do I want and need out of life. Instead of this whole ‘We or Us thing’.

We’re with someone and we don’t feel the same anymore. The chemistry is gone, we fell out of love or we’ve outgrown the relationship and we are in a war between our heart and our mind. We know deep down in our soul, that we gotta do what we gotta do. You try to find the right words because although it’s hard, you don’t want to continue living a lie.

It kills you deep inside that it has to come this. Because although you love the person you’ve known. You know the best thing is for you two to be apart. Breakups are not easy this is why some people ghost. They don’t have the courage to tell you it’s over in your face or give you closure. What I love about this song is that towards the end.

Ralph is letting her know that even though he loves her, that the best things is for them to be apart and continue to be friends. Why continue to be in a relationship you’re not happy in. Which will lead to nothing but a spiritual death and regret. He still wants to be her friend and be there for her.

He just can’t continue breaking his own heart and being unhappy anymore for the sake of someone else. No matter how much he loves her. I know to many people who stay in relationships way past their expiration date. Knowing they should have left a long time ago.. we’ve all been there.

Trying to work things out because of the time we put in and because we truly care. But it gets to a point that if you don’t end things you are going to go mad. In my last relationship, one day my ex came home. As soon as he walked through the door. I got up went to the bathroom and closed the door. I had this song playing in my ear. I just sat on the bathroom floor and wept.

I was so unhappy. He knew I was unhappy but didn’t care as long as he had a roof over his head and what he wanted. My bed was cold. There was no love or affection. Just him needing me all the time. I fell out of love and I just wanted to be alone. I never wanted to live with him. It was hard telling him to move out of my place. But I had to or else it would have continued and it would have been my fault.

He would have continued living off of me. We have to take responsibility for what we allow to continue in a relationship. Set limits because takers don’t. When I cried, I was mourning the lost of myself. My dreams and my passions. I needed him to be there for me, the same way I was there for him. He wanted me to put my life on hold to support his dreams, which he said in so many way without saying it. That was not happening.

I never had his support and I got tired of the games or feeling like there was a love triangle going on. I realized he never really knew me. My needing to grow and wanting space was a threat to him. Space and discovering myself meant, I wanted better or that I would find someone else who could love me better, which was not my focus and the last thing on my mind.

I wanted a relationship with myself again. I wanted to love myself again. So I prayed and ended it. He didn’t want to be the man I needed. He didn’t want to add to my life just take from it. He only wanted the lifestyle I provided and my money. It wasn’t all bad… the relationship in the beginning, but I was TIRED. I wasn’t the same. My needs and wants since I was approaching my 30s were different from my 20s.

He never expected me to grow and change. He thought I would always be around and took my love, the things I did and how I held him down for granted. I wasn’t being supported in any way. Me wanting help with basic simple things was meant with resistance and arguing. There was no peace in my home. I tried to remember the friendship we shared, that’s the only reason why I let him stay, so he could get himself together.

But he didn’t want to get himself together. I found out his scheme to live with me and have me take care of him was planned. When I ended it, I felt revived. I felt like I found myself again. I was born again. I started smiling, laughing, being happy again. Listening to music, especially love songs again with out anyone turning it off., music was one thing we should have not been arguing about.

I started dancing and writing again. I dropped weight both mentally and physically. I started doing things I used to do before we met and before my mom passed. For so long it was about other people from when I was 14. In a relationship its hard to hear your own voice. It’s even harder to hear Gods voice too. With constant noise and be ‘ON’ all the time, with the wants and needs of another.

Sometimes you can’t be there for everybody. You can’t save everyone. You can’t make everyone happy at your own expense. Being single can be a great thing. It strengthens you. Relationships can be great when there is genuine love and a common ground and two people are supporting each other. It shouldn’t feel like a job you hate because eventually you’ll quit.

It can’t be one-sided and its unfortunate that that’s what some people want. They want to use you for the own selfish gain. I know there were lessons I needed to learn and I learned them. I know that I will never go through that again. Every time I feel like a man is trying to trap me, on purpose or move to quick. I just do what I gotta do and let them go, because life is meant to be lived and I will not exist in someones shadow.